Teaching is soooo excruciatingly frustrating!
25 years Iâ€™ve done this â€“ under-funded, over-tested, overstretched, blamed for poor scores or achievement, etc.
Many have told me they could never teach â€“ dang kids and parents and administrators and all.
But Iâ€™ve felt the same about professions others go to everyday.
So why am I looking forward to this year? Iâ€™ll be back getting ready in my room next week â€“ the kids come on the 28th. I won’t even be getting paid to be there (nor will all my colleagues that have already been there for 20 or 30 or 40 hours or more)
Its what I do â€¦ what I get fired up about â€¦ I guess. No, I am and I do get fired up about it … WHY??
I do have some extra incentives this fall. I have a new interactive whiteboard set-up in my classroom and if I can get 7 year old iBook laptops running and keep them running well – I get to do a 1:1 laptop program with my fourth graders â€“ and Iâ€™m looking forward to that.
But thatâ€™s not IT.
I also look forward to the teaching and learning and field trips and projects I hope to have my students experience and share.
But thatâ€™s not it.
I think it must be all the triumphs along the way these 25 years â€“ like a narcotic or a gambling habit – maybe I need those exhilarating experiences when it works. When it works for the class, or a group in the class, or just one student – because when it works for them it must work for me too â€“ maybe thatâ€™s it.
Learning and teaching are messy.